I had heard this song so many times before. This was not the first time I had heard it. It resonated with me before, but this time was different. Vastly different. This time the words felt like my own. It felt like my soul was singing these words instead of my mouth. I have never felt a song more clearly speak the cry of my heart.
I had followed what I believed to the very fiber of my being what the Lord had called me to do. I felt the overwhelming peace. I knew I was walking the path He had laid before me. But then my worst nightmare. The one thing I never dreamed would happen happened. The one thing that would feel like a knife in my back and my heart.
How could God use this? How could this pain really bring about any good? I prayed and prayed and prayed. I spoke words of truth over my heart even when I couldn’t feel it. All I could whisper was thy will be done.
I'm so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don't wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I got is hurt and these four words
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you're good
But this don't feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It's hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you're God
And I am notI know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees
All that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Take a listen to the song below Thy Will by Hillary Scott.
My favorite line is sometimes I gotta stop and remember that you’re God and I am not. God gave me this song in my pain to remind me of my place. To remind that He sees and knows me even in my pain. To remind me that He is in control and it was time for me to let go of control.
My prayer for my life has been and continues to be not my will but yours be done.
♥︎Jenna
This blog post is a part of a series called Rediscovering God for the Write31Days challenge to write every day in October. You can find links to all posts in my series here. If you want to know more about the Write31Days challenge, you can find out more at www.write31days.com.